The Love Song of Creation

Today I drove back home through the mountains with that giddy feeling. I was experiencing the aliveness that comes when I align with the current of Love that moves me to share a gift that’s mine to share. Big or small, it doesn’t matter.

It is not something to be forced. It’s what I call in my book honest overflow—a tide that rises up within me and surges outward in a wave of pure gift: effervescent, clear, joyful. Ripe fruit that is ready to fall from the branches of the Tree.

About a month ago a new friend admired one of my favorite pairs of earrings while we were on a call. I considered giving them to her then but wasn’t feeling aligned to do so. Through this Abundant Beingness recalibration, I’ve become quite precise in my giving and receiving as what is truthful progressively clarifies.

To retain or to give?

There is no formula, and you learn as you go. Both over and under-giving diminish our integrity and experience of real abundance.

This friend later shared with me that all of her most precious items and family heirloom jewelry were stolen from a safe box while she was traveling. Even then, it never crossed my mind to send her the earrings. Over time our friendship and mutual appreciation has deepened, and yesterday it landed that those earrings were meant for her. I looked online for something similar to give instead, but nope, the signal was clear: time to share.

The timing and cadence of these gifts is decided by something other than the mind—it is a heart knowing, a body alignment, a spontaneous uprising, a grateful exhale and (at times) a tender release.

I left the post office today with a full heart and reflected on other gifts I have given and received over the years. As I drove my borrowed car toward my temporary homestead, my thoughts drifted toward giving away my almost new car when I left the farm in South Africa (which I wrote about in my book in the chapter: Honestly Overflowing).

This post isn’t intended to be repetitive, nor is it about touting my “generosity”. Rather, it’s a testimony to the powerful ripple effects of a freely given gift, no strings attached. For this, my friends, is the way of nature. It is the way of the heart that knows it is held by the Whole.

And following the impulse of Love that invites spontaneous, accurate overflow opens the portal for deep healing, untapped possibility and the next echelon of true abundance.

It brings new Life for both the giver and receiver and nourishes the Garden in its entirety. I hope everyone gets to experience this magic in their own way. It is life changing.

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I’ll rewind this story to last summer where I was in the depths of life. I cried in almost every conversation venturing beyond the weather and seriously wondered if I had lost the plot in general and certainly around Abundant Beingness. Would Life meet me in my giving? Was I deluding myself and out of alignment?

Although all of my basic needs were met, I felt stuck, stale and far from “abundant”. I was was still borrowing my mom’s car and was in and out of my parents’ home (a gift, I know). I was sorting through other complex physical, emotional, financial and relational currents and felt run down, ragged, depleted... lost. Every time I tried to buy a car off Facebook marketplace, it fell through.

I never once regretted the decision to give my car to my beloved sister when I departed SA (nor most of the other resources I left behind), but life at that moment felt incredibly uncomfortable, and any underlying attachment to being tangibly “rewarded” for my generosity was being transmuted. Shit was purifying big time.

During this period, I received a long voice note from the woman who received my car, and it blew me away—uplifting my heart and affirming my deep knowing that what is truly needed will come in the correct timing.

I feel honored to be a part of this story, for Love to have flowed through me in this way, and to humbly participate in the regeneration of a heart, school, and community. We are all connected, and what nourishes another also nourishes your own being.

Before continuing, I will note that I have been provided for in the most incredible ways. Life has met me precisely when, where and how I needed to be met—which is beyond the ego, beyond the mind, beyond the identity’s limited perspective and attachment to certain forms or timing. It deserves a post in and of itself, but money, resources, opportunities, vehicles, fruit, guidance, community, places to stay, protectors, etc. have arrived in the most astonishing ways and via the most unexpected channels.

I am blessed beyond measure and am deeply nourished by nature, which freely gives. And I, in turn, freely give back, joining in on the divine breath of Creation: inhaling Life, exhaling Gift.

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A year and a half after leaving SA, I received the above-mentioned voice note from my friend Mikyle involving the gift I had overflowed to her. I’ll share a summary, though it’s a poor replacement for her lovely voice:

June had been a heavy month. Her beloved friend and teacher at her school died suddenly, and then four days later, the heavens unleashed and she was swept away in the rising tide of a flood. Mikyle’s partner pulled her out of “our” car as water approached the windows. Her body was intact, but the Toyota that had opened her world to so much healing, hope and abundance was completely waterlogged.

She was traumatized and deeply saddened. After the school term completed, she went to Bhodi Khaya nature retreat to spend a week in silence while the insurance agency assessed “Catheryne” (as she had named the car) for damage. This occurred amidst a painful backdrop of ongoing discord between the land stewards on which her school was rooted and thriving.

This flood was not Mikyle’s first experience with nature having its way with her. Seven years prior, almost to the day, her home and childhood land burned in a fire. She was rescued, again, by her now partner and then rose from the ashes to create the most beautiful school of self-sufficiency and nature-based education that serves as a beacon of light, healing and whole-being learning in the Garden Route of South Africa.

After pouring her heart and soul into this school, clearing the land of invasive species, planting indigenous trees, establishing verdant, bio-dynamic gardens, and supporting the blossoming of precious young beings, a dispute erupted between the land shareholders. It is a long, complex, infuriating tale, but at the end of the day, Mikyle was being pushed out of the land she had stewarded with immaculate care, and was offered a minuscule amount of resources for her small number of shares... after all she had given.

It was becoming increasingly clear that the energetics of the space were no longer congruent with the heart school held at its center. And although change was imminent, it was still difficult to release her grasp on something long-cherished and cultivated from the core of her being.

As she sat in silence at Bhodi Khaya, multidimensional grief and trauma processed from childhood, the flood and the fire. She sat with the heartache about the school/land dynamic and couldn’t even walk through puddles due to a traumatic freeze response. Sensations of loss, waste, uncertainty, and self-blame cycled through.

She recognized it as an initiation, but couldn’t help but ask, “Why?”

She pulled the card of Acceptance as lightening and thunder stormed around her.

“Ok.” She said. “I have sat in the fire, been baptized by the water; I can also sit in open-handed, open-hearted acceptance of what is in relation to the land.” She dropped into meditation on acceptance the day before winter solstice in the Southern Hemisphere.

She envisioned the toroidal field of giving and receiving: In and out, in and out. She reflected on the Tree in the Garden of Abundant Being. She was trying to understand it all when Grace stepped in and said, “Stop. Just stop. You are doing it totally wrong. Let me show you what this is all about. Look, do you see the sun? Look at the sun—this infinite source of light, generosity, abundance and beauty. Can you see the sun? Can you feel this Love?

“Yes!” she said. “Oh my gosh, yes, yes! I see the sun, and I feel the Love.”

“And look at this earth. Look at her minerals and animals, her plants, her people and her colors. Can you see the earth in all her beauty?”

Mikyle responded, “Yes, yes! I see her beauty. I see.”

“And can you hear the Love song, the Love making of Creation—the Love of the sun penetrating into earth, filling her with every single possible thing she could need to nurture and give birth to new Life.”

“Yes.” she whispered. “Yes, I can hear it.”

And here, she was held by Grace in this toroidal field of giving and receiving. No striving, no straining; it all landed with accuracy and potency.

“The Love making of heaven and earth—this is your birthright. This is the Love song. And from here, yes, you are the Tree of Giving and Receiving in the Garden of Abundant Being, but do not forget the greater picture and the greater heritage of that abundant beingness.”

This anchored her into an incredibly profound state of consciousness, and it was from that moment she found the grace needed to accept the car, the water damage, the land dispute, the attachment to all of it. Here she rested into the flow of Life. It was an initiation that was so beautiful, so profound, so blessed.

The next day on the solstice, she chose another card which reflected Blessing back to her.

“There is blessing here,” she said. “I don’t know what it is, but I am moving with it.”

And she felt it on every level of her being—this cosmic blessing and deep knowing that this gift, this life, this organic nature is truly for us.

After this meditation, she received an email saying that her car had been written off as the water damage was too comprehensive. They would be in touch about the payout. A few more days of silence, acceptance and non-attachment, and something strange happened to her.

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As Mikyle shared with me about this experience, she reiterated that the gift I gave her was so much more than that tangible, physical item. It was a gift that came in response to a prayer she had offered to Life, to all of Creation, amidst the land dispute.

She asked, “Where have I done wrong on this land? Do I owe money to these people? If I owe money, show me, so I can make it right.”

In response to that prayer, Life brought her a much-needed new car, through me (I had no idea about this prayer as a side note. My gift was completely spontaneous and a natural movement of Love).

Mikyle said to me, “Not only did you initiate me into a deeper understanding of my own worth—of how worthy I am to receive such an enormous, expensive gift that came from a pure generous space of love—it changed my reality and made me feel empowered, worthy, loved... like I am so much more, and had so much more that I could then give.”

And give she did. She flowed herself into her partner, son, family, school, projects and other people that she would never have even dreamed of doing had that gift not come her way.

She relayed that receiving this gift set her free from a battle that was weighing down her soul and breaking her spirit in response to a debt that she supposedly owed to people who she felt she had already given so much to. And the car coming in at that particular moment showed her (at a level of such abundance) that she owed nothing. It set her free spiritually.

“It is so profound,” she said… losing the vehicle to the flood set her free once again as it ushered her deeper into surrender and non-attachment. She realized there will never be a path forward for her school on that land. She found acceptance and the readiness needed to walk away from toxic relationships that failed to see the love, beauty and real value she was sharing.

She stopped resisting and rested in the current of Life that was moving with her, as her, for her. It was time to let go of the past and open her heart to receiving what is new.

“And the new is coming!” she said. New land has been offered for the School Of Unified Light, and the higher vision is anchoring in a powerful way. This creation is moving through her, and yet it is so much bigger than her. The other resources will come in due time, beginning with the sale of her shares in the previous land.

All of this revelation came with the loss of the vehicle.

Mikyle returned home from her silent retreat with peace in her heart and a deeper understanding of the Love song of Life.

She went to see the ruined car, took back her owl feather and removed her moon Magdalene off of the dashboard. On the way out, Mikyle looked back at the car and saw that “Catheryne” was now just a car. Before there was a living current, this golden thread, a life-force that imbued that space. It was so precious to her—not just a car—a sense of safety, security, empowerment, pure gift, and a representation of her love for and connection with me.

That life-force was no longer there.

She checked in with herself and asked, “What did this car give me? It anchored me on higher ground, it anchored me into a deeper sense of self worth, it completely expanded my understanding of what is possible in this world, what is possible within me, what i am capable of, the miracle that is Life.”

It all translated to profound empowerment within her self. She checked in and said, “Is that intact within me? Did I learn the lesson? Did I receive this pure gift?” And the answer was—yes. It was all there. All inside of her. It was just a vehicle, but the gift was that it initiated her deeper into her true nature and stripped her of all of the programs of poverty and lack of worth—cleared it all.

She walked away from the lot with her heart shining and went home.

Not long after, she received payment for the current retail value of the vehicle and said a prayer: “Spirit, you know I suck at going through these spaces of society and car dealerships. I am going to open my laptop and in three clicks please take me to my vehicle.”

Within three clicks and four days, Mikyle drove away from the George Toyota dealership with a new-to-her car that was older in years but a complete upgrade for her life and needs! Leather seats, higher clearance, tougher aesthetic and space for kids’ bikes in the back. A miracle, she said. The same gift that keeps on giving, it just changed form into a more aligned expression.

She even had a little overflow cash from the insurance payout and was able to help a single woman in the community get the materials and labor needed to finish her small home.

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Tears were streaming down my face at this point in the message. I received the gift of affirmation and encouragement with gratitude that I was able to play a role.

She concluded her sharing with this:

“If there was ever doubt as to the power of a gift given from pure love, here is my offering: it just keeps giving. It has changed my life and overflowed to every thing I touch. It has liberated me from a dark, distorted entanglement where love was not the foundation of resource sharing and exchange. I’ve been set free... twice! And it is now clear where the resources from the sale of my shares needs to go.”

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Y’all, this isn’t about me, and it’s not about Mikyle.

This is about what happens when we get out of the way and allow Love to work. This is a taste of the possible abundance, freedom, clarity and joy we get to experience when we move with the current of Life itself rather than resisting its flow.

There is plenty for all—the myth of scarcity is one of the greatest lies ever told. Can you imagine drinking from a waterfall? That is the truth of our inherent abundant beingness.

And the beautiful thing is, we don’t have to clinch these opportunities into creation. There is no spiritual kegel to hold while keeping your spine straight, chin level and core tight. Just show up in presence to what is in front of you and allow Love space to move you, change you, amaze you!

If Life inspires you to share a gift—big or small—my encouragement is to follow through. Release fruit that is ripe and ready to fall and watch what shifts in and around you.

We live in crazy times, and the way we engage with money and systems of exchange lays the foundation for what comes next.

My full-bodied prayer and greatest desire is to wholeheartedly participate in the Love song of Creation. Who’s with me?!?

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If you want to learn more about the School of Unified Light, see their funding proposal for more information. Shining Dawn is the container for this project and they are ready and open for receiving!

If you are interested in joining the new Abundant Beingness investment pool that will provide exceptional returns on investment while also financing projects like Mikyle’s school, reach out to me. The AB Pool runs in annual cycles and accepts investments starting at $5,000. This is a new and exciting offering which will eventually serve as a private banking and investment community built upon integrity, honesty and collective benefit. Come play xxx