The Womb Portal: Rites of Receiving & Release
I’m writing from the hills of Costa Brava, from land stewarded by my dear friend and mentor, Katherine. I’m wearing her clothes, drinking her tea, and staying in her lovely casita as her guest. She has showered me with care (amidst a very full life) and even surprised me by covering my session with a local bodyworker.
This trip was not part of my plan—I’m in a place of limited resource bandwidth and did not anticipate an adventure to Europe. (In fact, I rifled through all of my pockets looking for cash before I left lol). But after visiting Portugal for a work collaboration, Catalunya called. And per usual, it’s been filled with plot twists, surprise encounters and existential reorgs.
My heart is full writing this post—this spontaneous retreat has provided safety and grounding while my body experienced massive shifts resulting in flare-ups and long stretches in bed. My work is refining; my heart is cracking open to a greater extent; and the medicine of radical receiving is coming in hot. It’s been deeply humbling and powerfully expanding.
Katherine and I collided 5.5 years ago on the sacred shores of Kealakekua Bay and have since weaved experience in astonishing ways; many of which included set forms of relating and financial exchange that felt appropriate at those times. My love for her is beyond space, time and the dying hierarchy of student/teacher.
What is possible?
This is what has been revealing itself these past two weeks. What happens when two beings show up in deep commitment to truth, honesty and love that includes both self and other... the Whole? What happens when we give our gifts, resources, time and energy with precision and responsibility, without: attachment to outcomes, confines of linear exchange, over-compensating, or static roles of student/teacher?
I’ll tell you—magic, healing and nourishment that penetrates to the core and ripples out to the collective. New opportunities and inspiration emerge for both parties, and the relational field shifts octaves.
For here, the current of abundance has freedom to move and take its highest form. The breath of Creation finds its most correct rhythm. Inspiration can indwell, and what needs to be resourced is fully Sourced. Offerings are made from dynamic truth rather than static mental models or past templates.
It keeps things fresh, current... ALIVE.
But each party must pass through the eye of their own needle.
Katherine and I both have been sharing from a place of integrity and alignment: softening, releasing and expanding as each new layer is brought to light—as each emergent wave of Love rises up and crashes outward. She has been honest about wanting me to come, about what she’s available for, and about when it’s time for me to carry on. I have been honest about feeling moved to come, about what I need, and about my inability to fulfill their standard ask for financial contribution while staying on the land.
Amidst it all, new seeds have been planted. Exciting possibilities play at the edges, and I believe the best is yet to come.
It’s true that not everyone is ready for these types of exchange.
Furthermore, giving what’s ours to give requires including our own needs as well—boundaries in the form of financial containers still have their place. For through the precise recalibration of Abundant Beingness, we come to realize that taking on the weight of the world and over-giving is unsustainable, subtly arrogant and collectively depleting.
Yet as we embody more Love, our essential nature grows weary from the weight of contractual offering. The soul longs to give freely, for its own sake—with integrity that answers only to purity.
This is the same movement of Love that led me to fund another mentor’s sabbatical many years prior, which I wrote about in my book in the chapter: Opening Possibility Through the Portal of Vulnerability. This time around, I received a dose of my own medicine and a tangible reminder that the River shares its overflow downstream and is resourced upstream.
More and more I see that we plant seeds in one Garden and reap harvest from another. The natural flow of abundance is wild and non-linear.
How do we move into this way of being?
We must have the integrity and maturity necessary to be deeply honest about what we have, what we need and what we can give—without placing the responsibility of our needs being met on any particular person, form or channel.
Our trust is in Life itself to meet us with what is truly needed. Another may play a role but should never be burdened with holding the weight of it all, which fosters co-dependency and stifles possibility with the heaviness of expectation. We must remember: Life can resource us in myriad ways and forms. Real vulnerability with another allows them to meet us in a field of truth and honesty—without pretense, defensiveness, projection or over-reaching.
This is all about moving from historical prescription to inspired precision—inch by inch if necessary. It’s about releasing stale forms of relating and exchange that we mistakenly believe will keep us safe and in control.
From this place of spaciousness, from this foundation of naked non-attachment, new possibilities can emerge that surprise and resource everyone in the correct way. Love has space to move as it will. It is a joyful dance indeed!
not pictured, me looking like hell writhing in bed… just to keep things real ;) xxx