Endings.

Sweetwater, TN

I don’t know about you, but I am ready for complete newness on every level of my being. I am at the end… in all of the ways.

This feels like far more than a lateral move—I’m ready to shift genres and move up an octave (or two) and release whatever is required to do so.

Perhaps it’s corresponding to natural conclusions accompanying darker days as we approach winter solstice here in the NH. Perhaps it’s riding more universal currents of closure and completion as consciousness shifts and more Love anchors on this planet. Massive purification and transmutation are underway, individually and collectively.

I’m feeling it big time.

Regardless, it has me ready to shed what is finished and lighten up across the board. It has me motivated to cleanse and release what doesn’t belong. And it has me open to letting go of all I have known, yet again, to begin again.

Even this work on Abundant Beingness (in its current form) feels like it is drawing toward some type of ending.

A friend asked me the other day, “Are you more clear about the role you want to play and the bridge you aim to be...”

My most honest truth surfaced when I read those words—I don’t, and I’m not even interested in the conversation. I’m 100% here for accurate service; it’s just that I’m ready to turn the page. It’s time to mix it up.

The most innocent part of me is excited about a fresh start, a new frontier of exploration, creation and sharing, even though I have no idea what that will look like.

I no longer aspire to play a certain role nor seek to position myself as a bridge or inspiration in any overt manner. I have no desire to teach, convince or evangelize. And I have zero aspirations as to which particular foundation I am trying to lay for “new earth” beyond showing up moment by moment and doing what I feel inspired to do, what is mine to do, as a being of Love here and now. 

I want to create more beauty; I want to live more vibrantly; I want to enhance the Whole in ways that are generative, aligned, and alive... How? That is a Mystery. Our presence is service—anything else is icing on the cake.

This is the essence of Abundant Beingess anyhow.

For at its core, Abundant Beingness is all about moving with the living momentum of Life that brings us deeper into our bodies; deeper into truth; deeper into real nourishment, aligned flow, and authentic freedom.

It is the Grace that draws us more profoundly into generative connection with the Whole of the Garden; in this way we flower into our greatest, most helpful, most abundant expression. 

This is the fruit of embodiment, and here, money/resources find their correct place—no business plan or 10 week program required. We simply allow the Tree of our being to receive as needed, mature in our own time, and give as inspired. And the many bumps along the way all help to shape and direct us; they prune and purify what is no longer needed… what isn’t truly “us”. As difficult as it may be, we can trust the journey.

We, like the Trees, are toroidal beings, and the true flow of abundance is an open system that only grows in power as we join in and release stale patterns and negative forms of control that prevent it from flowing freely. I digress, but that is the book in a nutshell.

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Here’s what’s happening on my end—

I’m noticing the subtle holding, the unconscious clenching, and the remnants of striving all in the name of “service”.

I’m releasing a shit ton of words, a worthy dream, and an identity that desires to be a coherent channel for resources to flow through. These things were true, are true, and yet I’m entering into a more complete surrender, a more thorough shedding, and I’m holding my “work”, my “service”, my “offerings” with an open hand.

Yesterday I was walking through the woods and waves of exhaustion and sadness swept through. With new clarity I was able to see the ways that I continue to overextend myself and shoulder unnecessary responsibility that is not truly mine.

Good lord, I thought I was done harmonizing the distorted service paradigm within myself ; )

I still want sooooo much more for my fellow beings (and the Earth as a Whole!) than the status quo. Yet as of today, I don’t feel called to insert myself into the conversation in any particular way nor play a specific role in the sacred money movement. 

And I know that it is not my responsibility to help resource every amazing new creation that needs to come into being. If it happens as a natural byproduct of sharing real overflow, then what a joy! I’m here for it!

But that must come from the true source and not from some spiritual kegel I’m still trying to hold to make it all work.

Same goes for my health, home, finances, relationships, etc.

So right now I’m celebrating this time of cold weather and hibernation, where short days and long nights encourage rest, review and regeneration. Where we put down all that we carry and ask in humility for guidance as to what is next—what truly is calling us forward.

Abundant Beingness could rebirth itself, or this release could create space for an entirely new inspiration to take root. We shall see!